Monday, October 10, 2016

Monday Motivation = 101 Things Update!!

So, I've been writing not much of anything except exhaustion and lack of motivation. But there have been changes happening and school is currently out so I have two glorious weeks to get shit together and get prepared for the next session. You may have also notice that I've been a bit Content Lite lately. Obviously, I've had a life and things have happened. There are things I want to write about, but I've needed time to consider them. I hope to get back into more than one or two posts per week. I just need to think a bit about what I want to write and when...and I'm super excited to have an awesome Passion Planner that started this month, and I'm gonna sit down and bust out a schedule! So that's going on this week's list and should also be fun, because stickers. Peep this week's fun list and then also I'm doing a massive update of my 101 Things to do in 1001 Days as well. Time to get back on track with that!


This Week's Goals
Fill out my Passion Planner
Put together my marathon playlist
Do some yoga
Enjoy Baltimore with Adam
Don't think about fucking school!


101 Things Update

There are more added to this list that I'm not doing, because we moved from our house to our apartment...and just life changes. So the remaining house things are off the list!

Not Doing:

014. Make a vegetable garden
015. Redo landscaping around house
016. Remove stump and pave area in front of steps
100-101. Private

Also, there are things I finished!!!


045. Finish Renaissance Costume
060. Pay off credit cards
--->I DID THIS!!!!! My credit cards are paid off and Adam and I have paid off another as well as cut one up so we never use it again. It's been a hard road, but I finished my end and now I'm working on getting me and Adam in a good place.

And then of course, all that I am working on next!!!


019. Create line of dolls
057. Ride a Horse
058. Go rock climbing (outside or inside)
065. Hike all the trails in all the Metroparks of Cleveland and Summit County
066. Hike every trail in CVNP

Friday, October 7, 2016

Recent Work : Shannon Movement

This is another continuation of my Movement Project...which is going somewhere, I think. But whatever. Enjoy cool photos of my friend!






Monday, October 3, 2016


I don't feel much different from last week and today has such a long to do list that I'm not even digging up a photo for this post, because fuck it.

I used to think this section of my blog was a helpful illustration of how I remain motivated and how I manage my time. But right now, it feels like I sound like every other asshole in the U.S. talking about how BUSY EVERYTHING IS. Of course, I'm not rereading this blog post to every person who asks me to hang out, but I am writing every week the same shit that I fail to accomplish and how hard life is.

But whining is annoying, isn't it?

This Week's Goals
Run three days
Hit my mileage goal
Do some yoga
Stay on top of my schoolwork
Clean out all the things
Sew stuff
Paint the bedroom
Put together the bedroom
Complete as much Coursera coursework as possible*

* I'm not actually sure when this one will ever be completed, but I have to keep listing it so I don't allow this goal to fall away to the land of shit I never finished. It's important and I will get to it.

Friday, September 30, 2016

Recent Work : Karina; Purple

Though I mentioned that I am excited to use myself as a model, I am still also excited to work with other models. Especially if those models offer me something I can't comfortably recreate. In particular, Karina is a dancer I have worked with before, though I never posted the shoot I did with her an another model. I knew that Karina was up for anything and would be able to offer a lot of movement possibilities. I was totally right!

She arrived with a vintage Gunne Sax dress, and as we spoke, I realized I had another piece of wardrobe that would work well for her. So we ended up doing three shoots on this sunny, fall day, and I think they were all pretty damn glorious. I'm posting the one I just finished editing, and I'll be sharing the other two (as well as two previous shoots I've done with her) in the coming weeks.

It's true, I can use myself as a model, and I do. But it's also fun to have multiple models with different looks and abilities, so I can dream up and then execute shoots. It keeps me excited, creatively, even if nothing more comes of it than having a fun time, making art!

I wanted to start wide and play a bit.

This is a composite using a main image with her feet crossed, and then elements of her leg and skirt from another image to ensure that movement was represented with the best feet!

I love when things get weird!


That moment when the body and the hair and the lighting on the face are just right.

This is another composite where her legs and hair were looking their best, but the dress covered up some parts or didn't have the best movement. I used part of her leg from another shot and part of her dress from two other shots to create a more epic look.


I always like to finish with a few headshots and I love capturing light just right on her amazing eyes!

Monday, September 26, 2016

Monday Whatever

Have you ever had so many commitments, many of which you didn't really want to do, that you just feel like you're barely getting by, doing everything at the last minute? That's how I feel now. I keep posting this same list over and over, and I really never accomplish even half. I have a bunch of shit on the back burner, and it's pretty fucking important shit. At this point though, I just have no idea when I'll be able to get any of it done. Maybe when we're done moving. Maybe in between sessions in college. All I know is that right now, I just feel like Sunday rolls around and I have two hours to finish a fuckton of work and I just barely turn it in on time. So that is what my life feels like right now. I'm not really sure how long I can sustain this.


This Week's Goals
Run three days
Walk to work every day
Hit my mileage goal
Do some yoga
Stay on top of my schoolwork
Complete as much Coursera coursework as possible
Clean out all the things
Sew stuff
Paint the bedroom
Put together the bedroom
Move Rosa and Beep

Friday, September 23, 2016

Recent Work : North Bass Beach

Adam and I had the pleasure of joining an event hosted by the Lake Erie Islands Historical Society that took us to North Bass Island. There was a murder mystery game to play that we totally ignored in lieu of driving around the island and checking shit out. There were lots of abandoned houses, as the island is becoming a state park. It was basically glorious. And of course, I took a quick break for a little naked frolic!

I set my "tripod" (Adam) too far down the beach and when I reached the ginormous tree roots, I was kinda tiny. But there were other people on the beach and this was almost the most surreptitious shoot I've ever done. Because of the distance I was from the camera, I've cropped in close on these, so they quality might be iffy. Lessons learned, right? I hope they're still cool.







Tuesday, September 20, 2016

Fat Tuesdays : Nathan Sports Review

In response to my previous post, Nathan Sports sent me stuff and a hand written letter! I didn't expect free gear, but I was happy to take it...and then not so happy with it. I don't write this blog hoping I'll receive free stuff. I simply want the world to know that fat people exist and trying to tell us you include us without follow through is just bullshit. (I also think it's fine if a company doesn't want to include everyone, and that they should be allowed to say that, but that is an unpopular opinion.) Nevertheless, Nathan Sports sent me free gear, which I tested, and which I have well as including the same info about Camelbak, which is also relevant to the new stuff.

A few notes :

1. Nathan Sports is in CALIFORNIA not Colorado as I said in the video. I do all my videos in one take with no editing, unless they suck and then I do them over. So I don't actually really know how to correct a video, but also all those jumpy videos people post that have clearly been edited, seem fake to me. So anyway, I make mistakes!

2. Also, Nathan Sports doesn't exactly use models. There are people on their site and they have ambassadors, but they don't use models for their gear.

3. Though they don't feature models on their site, it still has models and their Instagram is chock full of thin people. I have a few screenshots below as well as an example of someone not thin and a disturbing one on their social media. So after the video, which is a 17-minute long review of their gear (and Camelbak), check out more info...especially if you're Nathan Sports and you're as serious as I am about this.

4. It may be confusing in the video that I say I put on the vest and it fit well and then I went to test it and it didn't work. I tried it on straight out of the box with no water in it. Once I put water in it, the fit changed dramatically.

First, images from their website

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Note how very thin the people are, even though they are also small images.

Second, a screencap of their Youtube Channel

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Again, where there are people, they are thin. This is also true of the reviews from ordinary people that I found. I could get all sociopolitical about how fat shaming also prevents average sized and fat people from publishing their bodies, but you can google that for another day.

Third, a screenshot of an average example of their IG feed

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More thin

Fourth, an averaged size person!!!


Hooray! There's at least one of us! And look, it's not hard, there are chubby and average and old and big and small and walkers AT THE END OF EVERY RACE. I mean that, in the last corral, where I am. We can be ambassadors too, just sayin'. People are racing who are not the first place finishers and trophy winners and elite runners doing hundreds of miles a week...and those average people are also SHOPPING!

Finally, a problem...and a SOLUTION!


This post is problematic, not the least of which is due to people be likened to a dog (and it was my first instinct to feel that fat people were being likened to dogs)...but just because people aren't dog sized or shaped. So if you want to talk about your stuff fitting all shapes and sizes, then just include people of all shapes and sizes. BECAUSE WE EXIST!

So I will say it again, because this is my offer to every company ever. I am a Professional Photographer who is capable of shooting in a variety of environments and I also have normal sized people available to me, so I will happily pose for you myself and give you the photos. I will also volunteer as a test model (you just gotta come to me or pay me to come to you) FOR FREE! I literally do not want to be paid to represent regular people. Expenses? Yes, 'cause I ain't rich! Gear? Sure, whatever! But actual monetary payment...NOT EVEN NECESSARY! If I need to work for you for free just so you will represent us, then I'll do it. But honestly, we all know that's bullshit anyway. So just find real people and real fit models, PLEASE! 'Cause this is exhausting and I just wanna be able to buy clothes and gear that fits and to see people like me in the media of the places where I shop.