Sunday, October 26, 2014

52 Weeks of Paleo : Week I Don't Care

OK, so paleo has basically gone out the window for me. It's not something we can afford right now. Because no, paleo is not at all affordable when you are broke as fuck/unemployed for a month. It's just not. And also, I'm just tired of trying to find it and do it. What it comes down to is this : I would rather be broke and happy than broke and trying to figure out some fucking new diet thing that I don't even really care about.

Paleo, for me, was an experiment. I'm not unhealthy and I don't think paleo is the answer to all my health problems. I don't think that being chubby is bad so I don't think that paleo is the answer to all my weight loss needs. I don't really have moral issues with the state of food in America because I don't have the energy to so I don't think paleo is the answer to all my philosophical food dilemmas. In other words : I don't believe in paleo and so I don't really care to continue with it right now.

The problem with any of the diets that are so popular right now is that they are largely food for the upper classes. Because classes exist in America. Class is a real thing and something that divides Americans. I can read about the benefits of all the diets on a million different blogs and none of it changes my financial status. Pop tarts are cheap and they get the job done. Period. Would I like to eat a totally paleo diet? Yes. At some point in my life, I would like to try that. That time is not now.

All the time I've been trying paleo, I've been struggling. At first, I told myself it was because it was so hard to pack for a 12-hour day at a county fair and paleo food wasn't really available there. And that's true. But as I thought about it, I realized that the stress of that job and the state of my interpersonal relationships at that time as well as the financial troubles associated with supporting someone else and my complete lack of belief in the diet itself were the real problems. Paleo was hard because my life was hard. It was hard to get through each day without having to worry about some specific way of eating that didn't really matter for me. And then after the event marketing, after being lied to by another company, having no job for a few weeks and feeling like I was kind of a failure and also a burden to those in my life who wanted to do things with me that cost money...well honestly, fuck paleo. Reese's peanut butter cups were fucking essential to get through those days.

I once had a friend who was obese...I think to the point of medical issues. She definitely felt like her size and shape made her unsuitable for social consumption. She believed that happiness was a smaller dress size. She once worked to lose a significant amount of weight. When I knew her, she was back on that struggle. No amount of assurance that she was beautiful, as is, would convince her. At one point, she sort of gave up on the weight loss. She was transitioning from college life to a new career and things were up in the air for her and she just really felt like focusing on everything else in life was more important than focusing on losing weight. She once said to me, "I'd rather be fat and happy than thin and stressed out." I echo that point. I would rather not worry about all the decisions and obstacles in a paleo diet and be happy just getting by than be perfectly paleo and constantly stressed out. It's just not that important to me.

So here ends the embargo on fries and the ban on Reese's peanut butter cups. Here ends the avoidance of carbs. Instead, I will have nachos and fries and ice cream and I will just not fucking worry about it. I might retain some things I learned in my brief foray into paleo, and I will definitely return at some point. But right now, figuring out how to pay bills, making sure I complete all my runs for the week, and enjoying my life with the people around me, takes precedent over any alteration of my diet. Paleo was an interesting and difficult experiment and I'm just not interested in it right now.

4 comments:

  1. Absolutely support this decision! Fuck Paleo!

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  2. I understand this! I did the Paleo diet for a while and loved it, but it's not exactly practical and economical. I have to eat gluten-free because I have celiac disease, but sometimes I really want to toss it to the wind. Whether it's because I want to just go out and share a pizza with my friends (without the awkward mentioning "gluten-free" to the waitress) or because I don't have much money and sometimes it's more expensive unless you're okay eating broccoli stalks.

    Christen
    http://christenlouise.blogspot.com

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    1. Yep. Totally. Girl, there seems to be gluten free pizza all over the place here! I'm surprised it's not easy to find in Colorado! I wish the government subsidized real veggies and not fucking corn.

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